…. Well sort of. In my last post I wrote about how I like the umph that a New Year brings but that’s as positive as I can really get about January. Despite it feeling quicker than most years; I’m still glad for it to be February tomorrow. I probably (definitely) wasn’t entirely honest… Continue reading Beating the January Blues….
A few ponderings about a whole 10 years of Claire and Andrew. This is my take; I’m sure Andrew will put his version at some point….probably. The summer of 2019 saw the occasion of Andrew and I being together for 10 years. Now bearing in mind I hadn’t celebrated an anniversary with any boyfriend… Continue reading A decade of Team McFowkes
September and October are always going to be odd months for us. Now we’re 4 years down the line we “should be” used to it. We “should be” fine; after all we’ve got Ophelia, we have our health, we’re happy in our jobs and we’ve just moved house and got our fresh start. And yet…..… Continue reading Reflections on Alexandra’s 4th birthday, Baby Loss Awareness Week and Ophelia’s 3rd birthday
Bravery – how do you even define what that is? I’m often told that I’m brave or strong when talking about our survival after losing Alexandra. The reality is that I didn’t really have any choice. In the early days many immediate spoken and written and reactions was “stay strong”. What does that even mean?… Continue reading Get Your Big Girl Panties On
When Claire was pregnant with Alexandra, it never even crossed my mind that anything could go wrong. We all knew that Claire’s pregnancy had been quite uncomfortable for her towards the end and were eagerly awaiting the new arrival. Claire was the first of us (the three cousins) to get pregnant. When my Mum rang… Continue reading Let the sun and light come streaming, into my life, into my life
I think it’s fair to say that the “Baby loss Community” has been rocked by 2 events in the last few days: the loss of Sam to be with her baby Willow and the response by Dear Abby in the US over her response to a letter regarding how a family was responding to… Continue reading The knocks we get
It’s been a while since I sat down to write anything for the blog. I’ve had a few ideas floating around but nothing really tangible was sticking. I wanted to write about Mother’s Day but I basically just avoided it. What can I add to what has already been said? IT SUCKS. The build-up… Continue reading Baby Loss Hour Live